Being a “seer”

When I was in my early twenties, I was very drawn to initiation experiences.

It was like some part of me knew that I needed some kind of ritualization of the transition from adolescence to adulthood, but that I wasn’t fully getting it from my natural experience growing up in regular culture.

So I sought it out.

I was drawn to self-transformation and shadow work like a moth to a flame.

I camped out in vast mountain wildernesses alone.

I took myself on sacred solo pilgrimages.

I wandered across countries and coasts and traveled with no agenda but to follow my instincts in the moment.

As I got wiser, I learned to seek out guides and people to hold me in these experiences.

One such experience landed me in the woods of Northern California.

The group was tasked with going out and familiarizing yourself with one spot in nature that was going to be a spot you returned to again and again.

Let the spot choose you - so much as you choose her.

My spot was this place where multiple trees were growing from the same trunk.

You know how they sometimes do and it looks like they are lovers.

There was this little tree trunk seat for me there, facing one of the trees growing out of the base.

I sat there a lot and did my best to communicate with the soul of the tree.

I remember having a vivid (sober) experience once while I was sitting there where I saw this being emerge from the tree; they shimmered and were strands of different rainbow colors.

They said one thing to me (telepathically), and that was: “seer”.

Seer.

I had really no idea what this meant at the time- I remember having a vague feeling about it. But I knew it felt important to me.

It wasn’t too long after that - perhaps a year or so - where I started studying at Boulder Psychic Institute to develop my clairvoyance (or ability to see with clarity - see energy).

Which is where I have been ever since.

Validating more all of the time that I am indeed a “seer”.

Someone who sees souls, who sees the energy behind the form.

Who sees between the worlds.

I actually don’t see that this is a “special” gift or something like that.

I see that everyone is naturally clairvoyant. Everyone has the ability to perceive in this way.

Children can naturally see the spirits of those who have passed, for instance.

And it’s like any other skill - it requires repetition and practice.

Especially in a world that invalidates this way of perception so much.

But I know it’s one that I have come to embody in this life-time.

That of the seer.

The visionary who sees with clarity.

I absolutely love that I get to embody this in my work with others.

That people come to me to be seen.

Seen on a level that is quite rare these days - on the level of spirit.

Seen beneath the layers of social conditioning or beneath the words.

But for the layer of energy that underlies it all.

And the energy never lies.

The energy is what is the foundation for all the rest.

To see and be seen on this level is truly a gift.

And my heart blooms in the intimacy of it.