walking a path of forgiveness

Photo by Nico Nelson

I didn’t come here to fight.

I am not a fighter.

I see this can be hard for me to remember sometimes-

Because I’ve spent the last number of lifetimes

Fighting for an issue

Standing up for what is right
And against what is wrong

Championing for a cause.

I think that’s an awesome experience to have on Earth.

But it’s just not the experience I’ve come here to have, this lifetime.

This lifetime is less about fighting

And more about turning within myself.

This lifetime is less about categorizing things into right and wrong

And more about creating peace inside.

Fighting is not in present time for me.

It is not me, this time.

If you are a soul who is here to be a fighter, I support you.

Stand up for what you believe is right and fight against what you think is wrong.

I feel like this is really valuable experience to have as a soul.

But this isn’t my truth, anymore.

I am less invested in right vs. wrong, and more interested in the complexity that cannot be categorized into such neat binaries.

I have learned the lesson that I cannot change anyone outside of myself, unless of course, they come to me and ask me to help them change (aka a healing)…

I am more interested in taking that finger that I would point outwards at anyone else and turn it within and be curious about myself.

Give people space to be where they are.

One of my favorite teachings that Jesus/Yeshua embodied and spoke about was “love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you.”

What he is saying here when he talks about love - is not like you have to treat your enemy like your romantic partner.

Because there are many different kinds of love.

But the foundational essence of all love, which is pure space.

You don’t have to like or agree with your enemy, but can you give them space to be as they are?

Can you recognize the basic dignity of their humanity?

To me, that is the kind of love he is talking about.

In that lifetime on Earth, Yeshua was not a fighter. He didn’t champion for one side against the other. He was very “non-binary” in a sense. He constantly preached forgiveness.

And even when he was on the cross, his body being killed by the Romans, he said: “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing”.

This particular soul path is not for everyone; just like the fighter soul path is not for everyone.

It is a lot less flashy; I will admit.

Taking a side gets a lot of attention these days.

No matter which side you are standing up for.

But I’m not really about sides.

I will speak my mind. I will say what I see to be true. I get to have boundaries.

But I’m not interested in taking sides in order to fight a battle against the other side.

I have had so many warrior lifetimes, haha. It’s a fun energy to be in sometimes.

But it’s not really me. Right here. Right now.

Me: is all about peace, gentleness, slow sweetness, beauty, spaciousness, deep sight, amusement, wild and instinctual, permission to be human, true compassion.

One benefit of where I stand now on this particular soul path, is that I can see all sides of any issue.

I can see the energetics of what is really going on because I am not as blinded by judgement.

And I can see that everyone is doing the best they can.

My truth this lifetime is to cultivate and hold that sense of peace within myself.

That no matter what… through the ups and downs of life (because there are so many ups and downs of the wildness of what it is to be human…)

I can have peace. I can have space; inside.

I’m here to support other people in cultivating peace and space in themselves.

I’m here to model it, so that whoever wants to match that vibration, can choose to do so.