surrendering to loss

I recently saw this content on Instagram that was like: “if you’re having a hard time right now, I’m really proud of you for pushing through.”

And I was like...

I’m not interested in pushing through.

Pushing through pain

Discomfort

Grief

Hardship

That message is everywhere

Just push through

I’m proud of you for pushing through

Pushing through is how you get things done. It’s the way-

What if I could surrender instead?

Instead of fighting the descent into my shadow realm

Instead of fighting challenge - or feeling like I need to “tackle it”-

What if instead- I just gave up.

I said- I surrender to this.

I surrender to my Life.

I surrender to Loss.

I surrender, in the hard times.

I’ll let it be.

I’ll give it space.

I’ll get soft - instead of tense, like the pushing requires

I’ll get so soft and supple and open

That it’s all able to move through me

Every emotion that is mine

Every false story that gets to be released

It’s able to flow.

So my message for you is -

Instead of pushing through your hard times

Open to them. Surrender to them. Allow them.

Written March 2022

Sebastopol, CA