Notes from a South Node Transit across my IC: The Clearing of Karma in the midnight of my chart
The last few years of my life have been marked by hard lessons, loss, persistence amidst challenge.
In the midst of all of this, my career has been blooming, like a patient flower. This is what it has felt like to have the South Node cross through my 4th house and IC angle.
I have six planets at the midnight of my chart; the fourth house, and the 3rd house, where my IC angle lies.
For those of you who are not familiar with the houses or angles, this is essentially the lowest point of a chart. The deepest part of the cavern. The most far down into the Earth, below the horizon, the chart goes. The place farthest from the light. In particular, the IC represents the midnight of your chart.
It represents, home, ancestry, origin, foundations, family, your deep emotions, your mother.
It’s safe to say, that I have a lot of power and focus here, with 6 planets sitting next to each other in this place. And to have the Lord of Karma, a South Node Transit, scraping the barrel of my origin point has been anything but easy.
It has been draining, disheartening, the opposite of hopeful. For awhile, it felt like one loss after another after another. I lost my stable home, then I lost my long-term partner, then I lost my cat companion. I lost who I thought I was, I lost the ability to starve my body, I lost versions of my community. One after the other after the other.
It is true that through these losses, I awakened to my own transformative potential. My incredible ability to adapt, to change, to let die and be reborn. It is true that each of these losses gave me something- they returned to me that which was mine; my presence, my energy, my devotion, my time.
This south node transit has felt like a deep realignment. I have let go of a lot that which was no longer mine to carry; roles and ways of seeing myself that were more tied up in the past than in where I am headed. As this transit slowly makes it’s completion (for this time around), I am on an entirely different path, more myself than ever before, and more pointed in the direction of my truth north for this lifetime.
For this is how the south node and north node work in tandem. As the south node was clearing away all of the karmic debris that had me stuck in a past-version of myself, the north node was transiting my career space, guiding me in the direction of what I have come here to learn, grow, and teach.
Descending into the underworld of your chart and life is never easy, but you can go willingly. You go willingly when you remember that you will be a million times stronger and clearer on the other side.
Because the thing is the transits are here to stay. They aren’t going anywhere. I will experience another go-around of this same type of transit in 18 years.
But the lessons from the dark stay with you. They culture you. You stew in them, and they become some slow-cooked wisdom you offer the world. The things you learn during a hard time are usually so profound. If life was easy and carefree *all* of the time, you wouldn’t grow. Embracing discomfort, hardship, challenge is a part of growing and becoming anew.
I would be lying to you if I said that I wasn’t relieved that the this particular transit is coming to an end for now… It has been INTENSE, and I am ready for my experience of physical home to be a lot easier and not marked by loss.
And, I am insanely grateful for all that I have walked through the last few years. The truths I will be chewing on for awhile. The way I have showed myself how resilient I am; how steadfast and creative I am. The security I have found in myself as many things outside of myself that I would have put my security in fell away.
It has been a trial by fire, for sure, and I would do it all again in order to get to where I am now. The death is worth the clarity of the rebirth.
I hope this gives you some hope if you are going through a particularly challenging transit or time of life yourself. That this helps you remember that it will not last forever, and you will be so much more wise and lighter on the other side.
That the purpose of challenge is not to destroy you, but to empower you to grow. To remind you of how powerful you are.
Growing up my mom had this magnet on our toaster. It read: “If you’re going through hell, keep going.” Winston Churchill.
Keep going, you got this :)
If you want some help bringing clarity or lightness to a challenging transit or time in your life, book a psychic reading with me. I am gently incorporating my training in Astrology into my readings, and I’m very excited about that!
If you want to read some pieces I wrote during my South Node Transit, check out:
Thoughts on Moving out of a Dark Basement Apartment
Allowing the Upturned, the Upheaval
Navigating Relationship Endings
How Fantasy Will Kill Your Relationship